You got a question for me?

Whoa!
Whoa! Whoa!
I got totally slammed on the weekend.
I had to justify my non-excitement about getting engaged so many times,
it was pretty hardcore. I don't mind people elbowing me and asking when
I'm going to be popping any questions, but I wasn't expecting such emotional
responses when I answered with "probably never".

The responses seem to vary between trying to talk me out of my
non-excitement to the more condesending, 'I used to feel that way,
you'll change...' type retorts.

We really seem to have hit that spot where everyone we know is looking
aisle-side for their future and I can see the division between babied up
and non is just a couple of years away.

I'm happy for people that are truly excited to follow The Script, car,
chick, married, house, kids, but I would like a bit of uncondescending
understanding if I'm just not that excited. When I'm eventually
interviewed for some inflight magazine, I don't want to be saying that
the best days of my life were my wedding day and the birth of my child, I
want to be all like 'well, holding Cara's hand when she was nominated for an
Aria/Cara was pretty awes, or just beating my little half-brother down
the slopes was way righteous, or getting photos published was excitement
plus more excitement or you know, I'd even be happy not to have one or two
standout days in trade for lots of days to qualify for Pretty Freakin'
Coolness status instead'.

The Script is totally fine, but I just feel that anyone can follow it,
which makes it less fun for me.

I am excited for my friends and their decisions about between arriving
in veils and humvees, but it just all feels a bit cliched and daggy to me.
I just can't generate any funness about the process. I'm still not sure
if I believe that people should spend their entire lives with one person. I
get that it's awesome to share the journey with someone, someone who knows
where you've come from, but I also think there is heaps to learn off
other people too. In my head I've got images of people who have just been
married for far too long versus an excited loving couple in their
fifties who had just found each other. We've way steered away from jobs for
life, is this not at all similar? That said, I do love the Caras muchly and I
adore the thought of her being my partner in crime for life... but I
would want that to be because every year, or every decade or whatever, we both
decided we were better off with each other than anyone else and not
together just because we were all ringed up.

I feel a bit bad for Caras, she was all 'I don't have time to get
married, I have to be a rockstar' for ages, but I think she's slowly getting
caught in the excitement of wedding photos and nice makeup and a year of people
being excited for you.

It's a shame, and I totally don't want her to be unhappy but I'm
starting to feel like I might be alone in my circles of my rejection of The
Script.

Uh, and the child thing. People of late have been quite upset to hear that I don't want kids.
Like the engagement thing, a few just figure I'll grow out of it, but some people have actually felt fairly affronted and have put in good efforts to convince me kids are the way to go. I do wonder if it's a survival of the species thing, but personally I think the human race is surviving plenty fine, selfishly, I'd much rather concentrate with what I want out of life than raising people. I find it a hard conversation to have, because I don't want to upset future parents to be with my reasons, I don't really want to say "well personally, I'd be embarrassed to bring a child into the world only to say 'well son or daughter, here's the world, you should be able to squeeze a couple more years out of it' but good luck with your and yours."

I totally understand that people find their weddings and their kids the happiest bestest things of their lives, but I would love for people to understand that I'm excited about different things.