The unemployment of Adam

In a couple of days I would have been back in Australia and looking for work for a month. Before that I was on holidays since just before Christmas. I've loved my time unemployed and have been far busier than any time during my working life. I've had heaps of little projects and for the last couple of weeks been far too busy to really put much emotional effort into finding a new contract.

Yesterday, sitting at this very computer a change came over me. I felt it wash right through me.... I can't really describe it but it was like a disappointment, an unsureity that I never expected to be out of work for this long. My pride took a hit because I've always been able to pick something within a couple of days of looking and the total confidence I've had isn't so total.

My little industry, like so many others, is all about who you know, and the more you get out there the more work you get. Seek and the other job websites don't really work for me because there are people who spend their working days looking for jobs for me..... and those people have come up with nada.

I know there is stuff happening interstate so if I get too worried I can play in Brisbane or Sydney and I'm sure something will happen soon. I'm just a little weirded out because I've never been in this place before.....